chapter 7

.by Karen Finnigan on Wednesday, September 22, 2010 at 10:00am."Edward do you think ...."
"He's bluffing ? .I dont know" he finished her sentence.
 The drive back to the house seemed to take longer than usual , Edward parked up in the Cullens garage , Jasper held back as they made their way up to the house.
"Edward could I speak to Bella a moment" he asked , he nodded
She stopped and waited for him to speak,
 He exhaled "Bella I have always been amazed how welcoming this family have been to me , but you have a reason to dislike me  , and yet you have been nothing but sincere and loving towards me.." he broke off trying to find the right words
"Jasper are you still feeling guilty over my eighteenth , you were new just as I am now , maybe not in years but in the way of life you had decided to choose , of course I love you.
  "I need you to do something for me Bella only you can do , but its difficult I cant tell you until I have DECIDED to tell you" he smiled hopefully the penny would drop soon.
  "Alice?" he nodded
"You can shield this from her"
"Erm ok" she was getting slightly worried.and he could tell.
"Lets go for a walk" he smiled he led her out of the garage and began to run she followed and they stopped in the clearing ,
"Ah I see are we close enough to the pack to blindside Alice here" she smiled
"Yes I think so" ,
"Bella I want to renew my vows with Alice unlike my brother and sister we have only married once it was obviously a quiet and small affair"
Bella raised her eyebrow "Small and quiet with Alice " she chuckled
"Actually yes and we werent as settled as a family as we are now so I wan to ask her again and do it like she deserves" he smiled
 Bella walked over to Jasper and pecked him on the cheek , "That would be wonderful Jasper" she smiled "And dont worry I will organise everything"
 "thank you Bella , for everything" "But are you sure Edward wont mind you closing your mind to him" he asked
"Na , he's used to it now" she laughed and they ran back to the house.

 Edward looked puzzled as they arrived back , he concentrated then sighed, "not again" he shrugged she walked over to him and kissed his soft lips.
"you dont need to read my mind to know how much I love you" she smiled
  She decided to think of as many bad ideas for renesmees party as she could , that should really keep Alice busy.
       Alice jumped up from sitting between jaspers knees ,
"Bella you cant be thinking of dooing that for her , honestly do I have to arrange everything around here" she snapped smiling a little
Bella quickly glanced over to jasper and he smiled .
    So Alice was so busy organising the party  , Bella had made it completly impossible for her to focus on anything else.
  Bella organised Mr Webbe and the gifts for the naming ceremony, the girls had a pendant with a rose on it and engraved into the back was ' My heart is yours forever' , the men had the sane only on id bracelets.


                   Finally the day of the party came,
 "Happy birthday angel" smiled Bella kissing her daughter ,
"Happy birthday baby" sighed Edward his face glowing he still found it hard to believe he was so lucky having a family , something the rest of the family had always dreamt about.
 Alice ,being Alice had covered the house with teddies and butterflies and ribbons on every surface.
Bella and Edwad brought her up from the cottage , their way was lit with twinkling lights and roses.
 "Oh Alice I love it" she squealed,
"Alice its beautiful than you" Edward smiled and hugged his sister ,
Everyone was having a wonderful time , Renesmee was dancing with Carlisle and they played party games , from a passers by point of view it looked they any childrens birthday party a big cake and loads of presents.
Rosalie had bought her an antique dressing table with mirror and brushes , Emmett a catchers mitt, from Alice and Jasper boxes of clothes and shoes , although hidden away in a box was a pendant which read ' to a precious angel' Bella guessed that had been Jaspers contribution, and from Carlisle and Esme well she was puzzled because they gave her a pair of scissors with a pink bow on them.
"Erm grandfather what are these for" she smiled not wanting to sound rude , Carlisle looked at Edward and he smiled, Edward nodded and a large grin appeared on his face.
"Come with me sweetheart" smiled carlisle and he grabbed her hand and they where gone , Bella looked at Esme who just shrugged she wasnt going to spoil the suprise , a few minutes later Renesmee came bounding in with carlisle on her heels,
"Mummy , daddy, Esme and grandfather gave me my own library , the scissors were to cut the ribbon oh thank you Esme" she threw her arms around Esme and kissed her cheek.
     There came a knock at the door and Edward answered it , Alices head snapped up and she smiled at Bella who just shrugged , ok so Alice now knew but it was still a suprise to her and bella liked that.
   "Good afternoon Mr Webbe wont you come in" smiled Edward
        He walked into the living room with Edward and cleared his throat.
"I have been asked here today to perform a special naming ceremony for a Miss Renesmee carlie Cullen" he smiled
 "Thats me" she jumped up and everyone laughed,
"I'm sorry Mr Webbe I dont understand" smiled carlisle , he inored him and turned to Edward
"Who are the honourary guardians please"
"Everyone" Edward smiled, he took his daughters hand and stood her next to him, Bella joined her.
 "Today you are all to become honourary guardians of our daughter" he glowed with pride and brushed Bellas cheek with his free hand.
"Oh Edward" cried Esme
"Thank you my son, Bella" said carlisle hugging them
 To say everyone was overwhelmed was an understatment , Jasper just beamed it made him feel almost euphoric with all the emotion in the room.
   Angelas father continued , "I hereby make Carlisle and Esme Cullen honourary guardians of Renesmee carlie cullen to watch over her and protect her forever , do you agree2
"Yes we do" they hugged one another
"Rosalie , Emmett Alice and Jasper the same question?"
and before any of then could answer Emmett boomed out "Hell Yeah" thay all laughed "What he siad" smiled Jasper
   "Am I missing something" came a deep voice behind them , Bella stiffened and Jasper and Edward hissed.
"Sorry Mr Webbe carry on" bella spoke slowly breathing between each word
"The I name all of you Honourary..." he didnt finish as Jacob pushed his way into the front,
 "Honourary what?" he jibed and his eyes snapped to Renesmee who was struggling to free herself from her father.
Bella looked up with a smug look on her face "Youre early jake we were just in the middle of Renesmees naming ceremony everyone in my family has been named honourary guardians of OUR daughter" she smiled
  "Mr Webbe thank you for everything you have done today sorry it was cut short" smiled Esme ushering him out of the door.
"What!" screamed Jacob "You have no right" he hissed beginning to shake
"Oops someone let the cat out the bag , or shouldnt i mention cats round a dog" sneered Rosalie
  "Rosalie please could you take nessie to play with Henry" whispered Carlisle ,
"Henry?, you mean to say you have another one in this house" he growled
Rose stopped and turned "Yes he's my son and he's just like Renesmee , so no need to worry" she snapped as she walked out of the room with Renesmee.
   "Another half breed" he jibed at that moment there was a blur and Jacob was on the floor writhing in pain holding his jaw.
          And Bella was gone!

"Keep still and let me take a look" said Carlisle impatiently
"Doc I'm fine" Jacob stood and was about to leave when Esme blocked his path,
"You say you love renesmee and yet you are costantly causing her pain and hurting her parents , how dare you hurt my family like this Jacob black, leave my house and never step foot back into it" she spat , looking dazed her slumped off into the trees

      "Alice?" asked Edward pacing up and down,
"She's in the cottage" and with that he disapeared

             Bella sat on the floor in her daughters room clawing the floor, she had dug so deep her nails were soiled with dirt.
 There came a soft knock on the door, "Go away" she whispered , she knew he would hear her.
"No" he replied opeing the door slowly, her throat burned she had not felt thirst like this since she woke into her new life.
  "Leave me alone" she hissed , and she thought of the disapointment in his face when she lost her temper.
       "is that what you think, when you lose control I'm disapointed in you" he shouted , this startled her but she shrugged.
"Bella look at me please" she shook her head , she couldnt make eye contact with him.
  "Damm it Bella I said look at me! " he hissed she couldnt not obey , she slowly lifted her eyes , his hands were folded across his chest , his rugged jaw tense  his lips in a thin tight line , she sighed then her eyes met his , they were solid with pain not anger.

     He knelt down infront of her and held her face in his hands.
"Do you remember when Jasper told you his story , and how newborns were completly uncontrollable for decades?"
She nodded
 "But you were all so proud of me in the begining and amazed on how much self control I had" she sighed
"And what you think we are disapointed in you now?" she tried to pull her face away but he held it tight so she didnt fight it.
    "Bella you havent spilled one drop of blood , do you know how amazing that is for a newborn , we were all there in that room just then and you didnt attack any of us"
"Of course not your my family how could you think I would do such a thing" she snapped
   "Your eighteenth?" he sighed "jasper would have killed you , not because he was a bad person but because the thirst took over" he smiled.
"But whats happened to me , why do I keep losing control now a year on?"
  "Carlisle thinks he may have come up with a theory of why you are so emotionaly unstable almost human like" he said
"And?" she pleaded she wanted answers theory or not she needed to know.
"Youve heard all the stories of when we where changed all different circumstances but all with one thing in common"
she tried to think what it was but she shook her head,
"How did we react to the venom" he caressed her cheek with his fingers.
"You all said it was excrusiating and you screamed for death to take you" she still didnt understand
"Yes , now what did YOU do" he exhaled
 "I , I cant remember" she began to play with her fingers , she didnt want him to know how much it had burned how she had wished for death.
  "You cant or you wont remember" he asked pulling her face up. She shrugged,
"Carlisle thinks because you didnt scream and you held it all in , your mind hasnt been able to vent out the emotions of it all so its still stored up".